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Thursday, November 03, 2005

if wishful thinking were enough

I had dinner last night with a good friend. we talked about life, things, whatnot. we compared notes on our separate trips to Hawaii, on house remodels, and trips we'd love to take.

she's also an attorney. so, we talked about what I have to do to get everything resolved from my car accident. despite the fact that the medical bills are piling up, I have to wait until I am better before I can settle with the guy's car insurance and pay the medical bills.

I'm not better. I'm still having to go to the doc. to the physical therapist. to get cortisone injections. I had another one today. it wasn't as embarrassing as the last time. it wasn't the parade of people past my bare bum. it didn't take as long.

but it hurt again. maybe more so than the last one. I can't even decribe how much I hope this one does the trick. that the joints they hit today are the right ones. that the pain will go away permanently. I'll know in a few days.

if it doesn't work, the doc doesn't know what else to try. and my attorney friend said there are many car accidents where this type of pain never goes away completely. I don't want that to be the case with me.

if wishful thinking were all it took, I'd be better than ever already. but the positive attitude only goes so far. at some point we all need help. and when no one knows how to help, that's when it gets really frustrating.

but for now, I'm doing the wishful thinking thing. the shot today, it has to work. I just need to believe that it will. and worry about the rest only if it doesn't.

9 comments:

Brian Lavery said...

R.G. you will get better, it just may take some time. Nice to know you have such a great attitude.
Hope this treatment does it.

GlitterGlamGirl05 said...

RG - feel better! You know we are all rooting for ya!

Jeremy said...

Dang, I didn't realize you were still in pain. Good luck with the shot - I will melt some "special wax" and pray to ULLR for you.

Robb said...

I hope it works. Most of all I hope you can make a full recovery soon.

ramblin' girl said...

Thanks everyone!
and I should have thought about asking ULLR for help... good call Jeremy!

clew said...

Hi there! Just surfed in from ... somewhere??? ;) Enjoyed browsing your blog - your entries sound like the voices in my head.

If you don't mind, I'll be back again. :)

P.S. My brother lives in Estes Park. If you see him tell him I say hi.

Jen said...

Have you thought about alternative therapies such as massage or acupuncture? Just a thought. I know when I was in pain I would have tried just about anything.

Yoda said...

RG,

Jen's right. Alternative therapies are worth looking into.

I think you have the right attitude. A friend of mine writes for a health magazine, and she told me she once met a guy who survived cancer with a healthy diet and attitude. Gone, cancer free. It's not quite on the same scale as that guy or your injuries, but I do it all the time with colds. Haven't had one last more than a few sniffles and sneezes in years.

My point is that you can banish the pain, and you're alreasdy on the right path to do it.

~Kurt

kt said...

ouch. *hug* i hope you feel better soon! everyone is right - keep up the good attitude as best as you can!