brief snapshots in time. memories and thoughts. disorganized and random.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

rambling again

I'm dizzy. Could be the cold medicine, could be the things in my life spinning out of control around me while I feel as if I'm stuck standing still in the middle of it all, just watching it spin. I know, I keep coming back for a post or two and leaving. But I need a friend to talk to, and as it has been in the past this may be just the friend I need right now. One that doesn't really know any of the players in the drama. One that just listens, with a few bits of advice thrown in on occasion. I think part of why I stopped writing so often was that I finally found a very good friend who actually lived here, one I could talk to about anything. And I thought I didn't need to tell the page my thoughts. She is still one of my best friends, I just don't see her as much as I would like as she has moved far away. So, the page may get to hear more stories. But, then again, I know better than to promise anything. So, I ramble. Back to my point. My dizziness. It's been all consuming for a while. But has been present in some form for much longer. A year? More? I don't know. All I know is something has to give. I think I finally figure out what, and then I change my mind. Work? Friends? Guys? Family? House? All could use adjustments, but I'm contemplating big changes on several fronts, or they're being contemplated for me. But I can't decide if I should leap or not. Perhaps I need to tackle one at a time.