brief snapshots in time. memories and thoughts. disorganized and random.

Monday, October 10, 2005

reflections in the sand

the stars twinkled. the waves crashed down on the shore. the moon danced with the clouds. the shadows cast by the bonfire picked up the smiles accompanying the laughter.

and there I was, sitting in the middle of a big group of old and new friends. feeling utterly alone.

the newlyweds and family and friends all talked about important and silly things. two to a beach towel. beer and leftovers from the reception being freely passed around.

I talked some with everyone. but amidst all of the couples, all I could think was I wished I had someone I wanted to stare into the moonlit waves with. someone to share this little slice of paradise with.

I am having a fantastic time on vacation. the wedding was incredible. the ceremony was touching. the other wedding guests were some of the most interesting and genuinely nice people I have ever met. yet the solitude nagged at me tonight on the beach.

tomorrow we're hiking the nearly uninhabited coast. tomorrow it will be better. tomorrow I will go back to playing and ignore the reflection.


Elizabeth said...

I feel for you, Ramblin' Girl. I remember a tiny slice of those feelings when I was myself for 12 days. It will pass. You will still have warm memories.

Jeremy said...

well poop... at least you get to enjoy the warm weather... I wasn't sure I was going to make it back from the Broncos game yesterday... nasty rainy weather all day in Denver. (Of course you know what that means in the mountains!)

Have fun. and Aloha.

Robb said...

I wish I was on vacation alone or not!

Underachiever said...


I would have accompanied you, but you know, the restraining order and all...


GlitterGlamGirl05 said...

I want to join you. Is that so bad?

I am good at being the evil twin inside your head saying sometimes having a quiet moment is the best thing ever.