brief snapshots in time. memories and thoughts. disorganized and random.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

hey jealousy

you know it might not be that bad, you were the best I ever had...
all I really want is to be with you, feeling like I matter too.

that song reminds me of college. and a boyfriend after college. and now, how he now lives in the town I went to collge in.

he was the best boyfriend I ever had. everything was real when we were together. it was comfortable and easy when we first met. and the chemistry was amazing.

we may have played little games along the way, but not the big ones. he knew how I felt I knew how he did. in the end the timing turned out to be really bad. for both of us.

do we get a second chance at it? not we, as in he and me. we, as in all of us. will it, can it, ever just all fit again?


hubs said...

in a word, maybe.

Jeremy said...

I had fit. At least it fit for me... and then it wasn't.

Then I met my wife. We don't fit in any sense of the word, but I can't imagine life without her.

Fit is nice, but the challenge and discovery of not fitting - it makes life spontaneous, memorable, and worthwhile.

So instead of wishing you find the right fit... I wish you find what you can't live without.

Amy said...

very well said "I wish you find what you can't live without" but that said, I thought I had that once, too, but he went and found someone else whom he can, in fact, live without, but that didn't matter to him.

I will never have the answer to this question that you pose other than to say I have learned a lot from the "best I ever had" and hope to find similiar qualities and feelings and chemistry and passion again.

Glitter/Aleka said...

I totally believe in second chances. I wrote about it today. Sometimes everyone needs the benefit of the doubt. Just once. Once.