have a little faith

The most amazing part of life is who you share it with. Tonight I was literally surrounded by amazing friends. One friend I've known since junior high, one I've known since college, and one I've known since before she was born.

The last two are my sister's best friends. And have become mine. They are both like family to me.

It hit me as I was sipping Insatiable out of a red party cup, eating decadent treats and drinking good wine surrounded by lifelong friends, this has to be about the best time a person can have.

The notes emanating from John's guitar and piano, only enhanced my drunken feeling.

As much of a lightweight as I may be, it wasn't the wine, but the company that made me loopy. There weren't even any stars, just raindrops, but it didn't make a dent in the evening.

Looking out over the crowd I realized it was over. I now longer felt an ounce of blue. I fell in love again. As cliche as it may be, the object of my affection, was myself.

I realized how much I'd lost over the past few months. My happiness, my positive attitude. Much of the self-doubt solidified by The(ex)Boy's parting words.

I'd been trying to fight it, but it had been a losing battle.

Tonight something changed. I'm not entirely sure what exactly that was, but I again have a little faith in me.