gone, give a damn

perhaps I was a bit too arrogant. perhaps I had assumed too much. or believed too much.

I didn't believe it when he said it. I didn't believe it when my friends said they thought it could be true. but I'd thought about it. and why not? so I let the possibility creep in.

then I saw him. he was standing there with his arm around a girl. he tried to avoid me, but it wasn't so easy. I walked right up and said hello. and hurried on my way.

I felt numb. and I didn't really know why.

I was happy for him. and sad at the same time. he got me, like no one else ever had. it was easy. and fun. and uncomplicated. and we could talk about anything.

now it was gone. we had nothing. I couldn't call him now. what would she think. he wouldn't be calling me now. he had someone to talk to.

I guess we never really do know what we had until it's gone.