brief snapshots in time. memories and thoughts. disorganized and random.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

gone, give a damn

perhaps I was a bit too arrogant. perhaps I had assumed too much. or believed too much.

I didn't believe it when he said it. I didn't believe it when my friends said they thought it could be true. but I'd thought about it. and why not? so I let the possibility creep in.

then I saw him. he was standing there with his arm around a girl. he tried to avoid me, but it wasn't so easy. I walked right up and said hello. and hurried on my way.

I felt numb. and I didn't really know why.

I was happy for him. and sad at the same time. he got me, like no one else ever had. it was easy. and fun. and uncomplicated. and we could talk about anything.

now it was gone. we had nothing. I couldn't call him now. what would she think. he wouldn't be calling me now. he had someone to talk to.

I guess we never really do know what we had until it's gone.

5 comments:

Rebecca said...

hmmmm. This sounds strangely familiar to a post you did not too long ago... :(

Boys just haven't been all that nice lately it seems.... Sorry about that!

Brian Lavery said...

I'm sorry to hear about that R.G.

GlitterGlamGirl05 said...

My favorite t-shirt says "boys are stupid, throw rocks at them."

this is sad, but true.

Robb said...

Isn't it odd how these things work? Just remember your "somebody" is out there too.

JAX said...

I like that you quoted Jack here but sorry about the awkward situation!

Go out to a park with one of your close friends or alone and just scream really loud into the air, THIS SUCKS!!!!

It will kinda make you feel better, hopefully!