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Thursday, September 07, 2006

dreaming of the future

I keep having this dream. Actually it's not the same. There are variations, but the theme is the same.

In my dream I have gone to a party or a bar with him. The evening always starts out great. But somewhere along the lines I either find him kissing another girl, or getting another girl's number.

It ends with his getting mad at me for being possessive and leaving without me.

Now I really don't think he's going out looking for other girls. I don't think I get jealous easily, at all. And I don't think I always have dreams about the future.

(When I dreamed my neighbor was going to rip up her entire front yard the night before she actually had someone start ripping out her driveway, I was a little disturbed. But those dreams that actually happen aren't that frequent.)

What's bothering me is whether the fact that I've had a similar dream various times means something or not. Am I worried he might cheat? Am I worried I might? Is it my subconscious questioning things I won't allow my conscious to consider?

I really don't know.

1 comment:

Jen said...

I think it is probably just insecurities coming out, but they probably aren't based on anything.

Even after almost five years of marriage, I sometimes dream that Andy has left me or doesn't love me anymore, and I wake up scared. I lean over and ask him if he still loves me and he says "of course," gives me a kiss and I go back to sleep. I don't know what makes me dream it, but I think I have an underlying way back fear of abandonment or something.

I know in my heart that Andy loves me completely and would never leave me. He hardly even looks at another woman and I have not a thing to worry about, so I think it is just one of those things.

I wouldn't worry about it too much. The subconscious is a strange animal, and this probably happens to lots of people.