rambling again

I'm dizzy. Could be the cold medicine, could be the things in my life spinning out of control around me while I feel as if I'm stuck standing still in the middle of it all, just watching it spin. I know, I keep coming back for a post or two and leaving. But I need a friend to talk to, and as it has been in the past this may be just the friend I need right now. One that doesn't really know any of the players in the drama. One that just listens, with a few bits of advice thrown in on occasion. I think part of why I stopped writing so often was that I finally found a very good friend who actually lived here, one I could talk to about anything. And I thought I didn't need to tell the page my thoughts. She is still one of my best friends, I just don't see her as much as I would like as she has moved far away. So, the page may get to hear more stories. But, then again, I know better than to promise anything. So, I ramble. Back to my point. My dizziness. It's been all consuming for a while. But has been present in some form for much longer. A year? More? I don't know. All I know is something has to give. I think I finally figure out what, and then I change my mind. Work? Friends? Guys? Family? House? All could use adjustments, but I'm contemplating big changes on several fronts, or they're being contemplated for me. But I can't decide if I should leap or not. Perhaps I need to tackle one at a time.